First of all, I want to say a big old welcome to any and all new visitors/followers stopping by from various giveaways and whatnot. Thanks for visiting and sticking around if you feel inclined to do so. :)
Second of all, I am just totally in a blah, uninspired rut these days. Not sure if it's the dreary weather, this time of year (hello, SAD), or what. I've also had to tidy up my long list of blog reads, partly because it was getting out of control, but also partly because I think TOO much inspiration leads to the blahs, for me anyway. It's easy to get down on yourself and feel inadequate when you see all the gorgeous and professional blog designs, projects, and photos out there in blogland.
Besides the blahs, I've been feeling simply like I can't keep my head above water. Totally overwhelmed by day to day life. I know it's more than just the winter blahs (and, no worries, I'm under a doctor's care :) ) but it's so easy to think that everyone else has it all together while you are drowning in the hecticness (apparently not a real word, but whatev) of the day to day. Working moms, how do you DO it?
I'm loving this new stage Mac is in: the mobility, the curiosity, the FUN personality that is shining through. It's been so hard to keep up with him, though... he is like a bouncy ball from one thing to get into to the next. Yesterday he bit his tongue so hard (he fell under my sewing table, which is in the dining room, which is a prohibited area, aka the best place to play ever). Blood everywhere, and I was afraid he needed stitches. I called my mom, who calmed me down and luckily the blood stopped. Poor baby. He's also been a fan of playing in the dishwasher, playing in the fireplace (he just knocks the screen right down) and eating ashes, ripping the outlet covers out of the outlet, and so on. We haven't had any more stairs incidents, thank God.
So I should be able to keep up with my healthily curious little boy and sponge big girl, right? Of course. Can I? Of course. It's hard not to think, though, that as a stay at home mom I really don't have the right to be overwhelmed. It's such a struggle.
So I'm led to my last topic/worry/discouragement. Since living here in MA, we've gotten to know some great people at our church and I've just arranged with a sweet teenage girl to come over a few times a week after school to hang out with the kids while I go for a run. Great idea! We all win, and I get to run when it's not pitch black out (which happens so early here already). I can train and even get a little break. So today, I'm going to pick her up and bring her over, but instead of having a nice run in the rain (LOVE that) I'm going to head to the hospital to get a few x-rays instead. With only a few weeks left until the half marathon, I fear that I have a stress fracture in my shin and have been in lots of pain for a few weeks. Deep breath. I am absolutely terrified that the doctor (who I will see on Monday) is going to tell me I can't train and can't participate in the marathon. I would be so completely crushed, especially this far into the game.
So, friends, I know it's silly and I am so blessed and should not be so discouraged, but could I humbly ask for some prayers that the injury is not too bad and I can resume running soon? And perhaps some prayers that if I DO have to recover longer than I would like, that I would have peace?
It feels good to get all that off my chest. I'm hoping to get inspired again quickly and get going on my weekly 52/1 post. I did add a few new items to my Etsy shop this week, but I feel like that's kinda cheating to use that as a 52/1. Perhaps I need to step out of my comfort zone and start tackling some "what I wore" posts or things like that. Thanks for letting me vent.
Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the Lord will be with you.
2 Chronicles 20:17
you're welcome! if you ask me, you should do some recipes posts =PReplyDelete
Thanks for your transparency. I often struggle with the daily guilt of "I'm stay at home should I be able to get more done?!" It's nice to hear that I'm not alone in that. I hope you'll be able to get back to running soon.ReplyDelete
Oh praying for you lovie. You are an incredible mom who tackles so much but I applaud you getting rid of some of those outside sources of inadequacies. Love you lotsReplyDelete
Praying for you, sweet friend. I echo many of those sentiments--you are not alone in this crazy journey. And you completely have the right to be overwhelmed as a stay-at-home mom. Being ANY kind of mom is hard and draining and exhausting--luckily, it's also hilarious and fun and rewarding and the biggest blessing ever. Hoping there are peaceful and wonderful moments next week to temper the tough ones. Wishing you a restful Sunday and encouraging news on Monday to start your week.ReplyDelete
Loved the openness of this post. Thinking and praying for you! And you are most definitely not alone in your frusterations and struggles.ReplyDelete
Oh gosh, I am one of the working mom's that you're asking how we do it. And let me say, if I WASN'T a working mom, I would probably be insane! I love my baby more than anything in the world, but when I was on maternity leave or even when I just have a few days of work, I get TOTALLY overwhelmed. With ONE kid! So let ME ask YOU how do you do it?!? I think stay at home moms do NOT get enough credit. It's hard to be with children all day every day by yourself without other adult interaction. Is it rewarding in the long run? Absolutely. Is it really stinkin hard? Absolutely. So don't feel like you're not doing enough or like what you DO get done is wrong. Those lies come from satan. Work for me is my repreive! Maybe you should look into a part time job ;) At least you'd get a few hours away!ReplyDelete