I am boring. I often hesitate to blog because of it. I find myself writing not for myself & for my own enjoyment/therapy, but for others.... Who will be reading? What will they think of me? If I don't mention so-and-so will they be mad? How much do I share? Who really cares about my latest painting project or my horrific week with the kids? I try to always be positive, but let's face it, life is not always positive. What will all of these people, most who barely know me, think of me if I'm vulnerable?! I also have a hard time because I don't feel like I "fit in" in the blog world... I'm not a mommy (trust me, I've tried to "befriend" plenty... and many never acknowledge), not a great writer, I don't fit in any one mold. It's so hard with the whole mommy blog thing, because I practically AM a mom... only I'm "raising" someone else's kids. It's just hard to feel so rather left out but also be so included. I'm having a hard time expressing... ugh. Sometimes I feel like just deleting this whole thing.... and here I am. I'm not really one for new years resolutions.... but I've made a decision. No deletion... but I am finished. I'm finished with doing everything for others and leaving me for last. I'm not even meaning "do" in a literal sense, but more in what I say, feel, think, write. I'm ready to not worry about what others think... I'm so ready. So what if I'm boring, I'm going to write about my boringness anyway. So what if I only get 2 comments... I'm in this for me. And perhaps, this whole "me for me" on the blog is also a metaphor for my life...
Whew. Let's get it together.
I was thinking back on this past year... in general, I considered 2007 a pretty uneventful year. I soon realized though... this past year has been full. Full of blessings & excitement. So I decided to make a list (I THRIVE on lists) of my favorites of 2007... just for me. :) In no particular order....
-buying our house in April and spending the entire spring and summer gutting the place and making it home... and we were able to spend SO much time with our parents and families in the process
-finding out in June my that my sister in law was pregnant
-finding out this fall that my best friend was pregnant
-Ryan graduating in May with his masters
-my brother graduating from HS and my sister from college
-standing beside Beth at her wedding in September
-the birth of Addison Marie Morgan in May (almost June!!!) :) and throwing Carrie an awesome shower with AJ
-my job... in general. I've had my struggles with my job these past 3 years, but lately I've truly discovered my purpose at work... and having an 18-month old chase me around all day saying "A-A-Ashee!!!!" makes any tough struggle completely worth it.
-going to Michigan to visit family with my mom and gram in November
-becoming kitty parents in May (don't hate!)
-finally feeling part of a church and meeting incredible new friends
-going to the 1000 Islands with Kerry and Rob this summer
-our April trip to Florida with my family
-starting a blog and meeting new friends... and becoming obsessed with reading blogs... Google Reader is definitely my new best friend
-celebrating our 3rd anniversary
-the American Idol concert in August
-ringing in the new year a few days ago with our great friends Amy and Jason
-going to the gym regularly (especially with Alyssa this summer!) and getting somewhat in shape... including running my first 5k this fall!
-and... my husband accepting a NEW job just a few days ago!!!!
I'm sure I'm forgetting things... but looking back on this list makes me so, so thankful for the important people in my life and the ability to make memories and witness blessings. I already have so many things to look forward to in the next few months... Ryan's cousin's wedding this Saturday (Ryan's in the wedding), becoming an aunt next month, all of the new babies on the way, our trip to the OBX with Ryan's family in April... and so much more. This post was a mess, but I feel so much better getting it all down. Thus begins my 2008. :)